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Hey everyone, it's been a long time since i've done anything here on deviantart, it might almost be a year already.. It's like i've been dead. I was only artistically dead for some time, but i'm here again!
Anyway: there is a lot going on in my personal life, i'm busy fighting mental illness. I have also lost 37 kilograms since November, i've been focusing on losing weight a whole lot.. I felt bad about drawing for a long time, like it wasn't good enough and i just didn't WANT to draw, i had no passion left in me, but i got a feeling that it's coming back.
When problems become really big they just start to take over every part of your life and for me it also included my art, i was on a full-stop because i needed all my energy for something else. I have honestly cried about this, i wanted to draw so bad but i couldn't, i had no inspiration or passion or energy and nothing seemed to work.. I was so scared that it might never come back, it felt like i lost a really big part of myself and i didn't know what to do. Of course i can't say that i'm completely back to normal again because i'm not but i have noticed that i want to draw again, my passion is back, i can get inspired again and i'm currently working on the most recent drawing i've uploaded ^-^
Anyway: there is a lot going on in my personal life, i'm busy fighting mental illness. I have also lost 37 kilograms since November, i've been focusing on losing weight a whole lot.. I felt bad about drawing for a long time, like it wasn't good enough and i just didn't WANT to draw, i had no passion left in me, but i got a feeling that it's coming back.
When problems become really big they just start to take over every part of your life and for me it also included my art, i was on a full-stop because i needed all my energy for something else. I have honestly cried about this, i wanted to draw so bad but i couldn't, i had no inspiration or passion or energy and nothing seemed to work.. I was so scared that it might never come back, it felt like i lost a really big part of myself and i didn't know what to do. Of course i can't say that i'm completely back to normal again because i'm not but i have noticed that i want to draw again, my passion is back, i can get inspired again and i'm currently working on the most recent drawing i've uploaded ^-^
Inktober and birthdays.
So, i'm doing Inktober this year and trying to really stick to it. I'm having a lot of fun doing it.
Today was my birthday so that means i missed day 6 & 7 but i'm catching up to those on day 8 and will try to do all three of those drawings on the same day.
Then this coming week it'll be my mom and my little brother's birthday, lots of cake haha.
Also i got art supplies for my birthday!! I got Ecoline brush pens, aquarel paper and marker paper, i also ordered a bunch of cheap alcohol markers for myself (but those will likely not get here until somewhere early November).
I've been doing a lot of traditional art and enjoying that more a
I've missed creating.
I have been focusing on other aspects of my life for the past 2 to 3 years now, pretty much taking an extensive break from making art. I feel like i'm finally ready to get back into it.
I've been drawing with pencil and charcoal lately but it's no longer enough, i want more variety and i'm longing for digital painting, for a drawing tablet, for the versatility of Photoshop.
At the moment i don't own a functioning drawing tablet but soon i'll have a new one!
I am finally excited and inspired after having been so scared to draw for such a long time.
I've lost all of my contacts around Deviantart, art forums and just generally people i talke
DeviantArtist Questionnaire
How long have you been on DeviantArt? 7 years apparently! But i think i've only been active for 4/5 years.
What does your username mean? In real life friends/family sometimes call me 'eef', so it's a nickname.
Describe yourself in three words. Disturbed intelligent individual.
Are you left or right handed? Right, how boring.
What was your first deviation? This one, i made it for an important moment in my father's life.
What is your favourite type of art to create? Portraits, drawing naked people is especially fun ^-^
If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be? I would master playing the piano.
What was your
I don't know when i will be me again.
I am going to be really honest, i have lost all interest in drawing the past 6/7 months or so. I feel lost and like a piece of me is missing. I am severly depressed and my dark thoughts are taking up all space in my head, i can't read, write, and drawing is impossible! Whenever i try to draw i feel like it's all shit, it is worthless and it feels like i lost my touch, like i don't know how to do it anymore? And the passion is gone.
My passion for drawing has been such a big part of me for a long time and i lost it, i feel empty and generally sad. It's like i'm mourning the loss of my interest in art, i don't know for sure when it'll be back
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Welcome back! I'm sorry you had such a rough time though, but it's good to hear you've found your passion again and things are looking up. I can't wait to see your new drawings~