I don't know when i will be me again.

I am going to be really honest, i have lost all interest in drawing the past 6/7 months or so. I feel lost and like a piece of me is missing. I am severly depressed and my dark thoughts are taking up all space in my head, i can't read, write, and drawing is impossible! Whenever i try to draw i feel like it's all shit, it is worthless and it feels like i lost my touch, like i don't know how to do it anymore? And the passion is gone.

My passion for drawing has been such a big part of me for a long time and i lost it, i feel empty and generally sad. It's like i'm mourning the loss of my interest in art, i don't know for sure when it'll be back but i have been feeling a little more up for it this week. However: every time i draw it demotivates me because it all looks too ugly to me and i feel like an amateur. I don't think i will be able to produce anything proper until i have worked on myself. My anxiety and depression have not been this bad in years and if you've been following my journals you know that depression is definitely not unfamiliar to me.

As soon as i find a way of coping and feel like myself again i hopefully can get back into drawing..